Here are some of the questions they asked to begin assessing one's life purpose. So let's start answering.
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When have you been happiest in your life?
I guess it was when I was in America. I was walking down the street to go grocery shopping one day. Stepping into the snow, seeing the snowflakes falling, I was just very thankful and happy that I finally made it there. I am finally where I wanted to be. I have worked so hard to go there. I went through A LOT of obstacles, especially with my parents and family. Everyone kept discouraging me from going. Everyone said that I shouldn't go.
It was a couple of months after I started my student life in America. All the while, I struggled (the cultural difference, the difference in lecture styles, homework/course work), I never once gave up. I pushed myself and I managed to go beyond my expectations. I am not that smart when compared with all my University friends, but at least I know I worked really hard.
I'm also so proud of myself that I managed to last so long there, even though I didn't manage to finish my degree as I was having depression.
I'm proud that I manage to stick to my decision of coming back and not regretting it once. I never asked myself all the "What if...?" questions people would ask themselves after making a decision.
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What qualities do you most admire in other people?
1. Integrity (according to Google means "the quality of being honest and having strong moral principles; moral uprightness")
If I see someone who has this quality, I feel a strong sense of respect for them. An example where I find people lack of this is when their boss is not in the office, they tend to leave early.
2. Not gossiping/back stabbing
I guess would admire this quality of not gossiping/back stabbing. It builds trust in a way. And you don't get hurt.
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What makes you feel really alive and energized?
I feel really alive and energized right after I wake up either from a nap or a good night's rest . Other than that, a good meditation session helps and finally being able to accept/let go of some thing/idea/concept/thought. Writing about how I feel makes me feel that way too.
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How happy do you feel on an everyday basis?
Hmmm... It depends. You will normally see a smile on my face but I think that smile is more programmed/conditioned rather than expressing the feeling of being happy.
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If you had one week to live, how would you spend that week?
GO TO JAPAN! (This was the first thought that came up) But I guess the more sensible thing I would do is spend half of the time I have left with my aunts and cousins back in Kuching then half back at my hometown with my nucleus family. And I would devour all the good food!
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What “shoulds”(S) are overriding your “want tos”(WT)?
This is a tough one. But I'll try listing them out:
should (S) : want to (WT)
- not waste money : study
- study : save money
- not love : love
- live : run away
- be content : treat myself well
- be a good daughter: run away from all responsibilities/burdens/duties
- be a good person : scold some sense into (some) people who needs a scolding
I think it will take me forever if I were to answer this question.
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If you could change one thing about the world, what would it be?
That there be no thought that "Difference is bad/scary/wrong".
Long story short, people are at war, killing each other because you are not like me, you are wrong. People bully others for the same reason too.
· What one change
could make your life happier?
Less thinking and more living. I find that my thoughts (good/bad/neutral) affects my mental and physical health greatly. If my focuskeeps going out (be absorb in thinking), then who is there to take care of this house (my body) and the children living in it (my feelings etc.).
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