Gratitude

I'm grateful for all the decisions I have made in my life- the good and the bad. Why? Because of them, I am alive today.

It struck me today that if I had kept pushing myself to study at the States, I would have been dead by now. If I had chosen to stay instead of leave, depression would have killed me. I am glad I made the choice to live.

People always say to me: "You're wasting your time." But the truth is, I am saving myself. I am saving my life. I am saving myself from this 'killer' you do not see. And each day, I am doing a damn good job saving myself, I am my own superwoman.

I am thankful that even though I know it will be a hard road, a tougher life, I manged to make this decision. I never regret it because here I am now, alive. More alive than I have ever been.

Each day I live now, I breathe in more and more life. My road may be full of shit, corpses, whatever foul thing you can think of, but I am still walking it. It's either this or jump down a cliff. Most would choose the easy way out but I didn't.

This post may seem a bit self-loathing but I truly truly feel grateful for me. For all that I have done. And I have never felt this way before.

You should try being grateful for you. For your being you. For you loving whatever you love. For all your decisions-good or bad. Because you are accepting you.