Let me rant

When I started working this job, I realised a couple of things:
1. Your off day is never an off day. Your time off of work is also not actually time off.

2. Even if you don't want to do it, you have to do it. Even if you don't agree with it, you have to do it.

3. You are not allowed to act independently.

4. Whatever the boss says goes.

5. People can twist your words to prove that they are right. People always try very hard to defend themselves even though they are wrong especially when they are wrong.


I have never experienced this much unpleasantness in any of my jobs before. I guess I'm lucky it only started now. And it's going to end soon. I am so glad I'll be quitting end of next month. I would love to quit earlier but there were certain circumstances that couldn't be avoided.

I have never been scared this much. I would jump at the sound of my phone whether it is text or a call, because it feels so much like a harassment now. The scared feeling envelope me constantly.

It's not good to be beautiful. It's not good to be pretty. Other girls think it is very good to be pretty, but it's because they aren't in an environment whereby that beauty brings along harassment. When I started realising that I'm not ugly, I found out that there are many dangers of it. It attracts the unnecessary, the unwanted, the feared.

And I have never hated men more than I have now.